About Me

5 years ago i was a quite abused girl sitting on a half built porch talking to a God i didnt even know existed. I knew only how to survive and was rapidily falling into a downward spiral of self destruction and hopelessly just surviving, just living, and truthfully hopeing to die. Today i am a new creation in Christ. i have found a hope that has changed my entire life. Today the hope that many have shared with me i now want to give back to others! I am no longer just surviving . I am now a 23 year old woman learning how to live and sharing the hope that so many have shared with me with others ! This blog is a collection Hope.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Battle

here i stand in a place i called home standing in the isle between the rows of pews on each side of me staring into my enemy eyes and an army of blurred faces all ready for battle against me . I stared back at him in defeat knowing that i had noone behind me... He smiled as if he knows that he has allready won.



He steped toward me swiftly with no fear as i felt the hair on my arms stand up. He looked into my eyes and gave me a choice... He said "" i will give you your life back if you give up what you love, or for your life i will let what you love live ""



And so i handed over my life and my heart for what i loved most in my life... and with a grin on his face he raised his hand and as if the world fell out from under my fingertips darkness fell upon me once again and all the blurred faces prepared for battle against me turned into all the faces i love the most.



coinfusion spread across every inch of my soul as i fell to my knees closed my eyes and tried to find one last glimpse of hope ina prayer.



Thunder spread across the sky and shook the bed i slept in as i shot up with tears in my eyes. the thunder roared and the wind swept through the window and it hit me........ i cant win . not alone . 


But with my God i have allready won!
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